Anger Management

 Anger Management

It came so slowly that Katya almost mistook it for weather.

A passing mood.

A season.

But seasons end.

This did not.

Perhaps it had always been there.

Or perhaps ironwood remembers what flesh forgets.

Tiki had come from Bali long before Katya was born. Once he had watched fishermen push their boats into the sea before dawn. He remembered the scent of salt and incense mingling in the morning air, small woven offerings laid carefully on the sand before the day's work began. He remembered hands polished smooth by nets, laughter carried over water, and children who believed the ocean listened.

He remembered being needed.

Now he spent most days watching another horizon.

"They've changed the birds," he muttered one morning.

Katya looked up.

"They're the same birds."

"They're not the ones I knew."

Everything disappointed him lately.

The rain arrived incorrectly.

The fish had lost their manners.

People no longer listened.

Yesterday was always more generous than today.

His complaints gathered around him until they seemed to speak before he did.

Katya found herself measuring every sentence.

Walking on eggshells.

An unfortunate skill for a cat.

One afternoon she found him beside the water, his fishing line drifting without conviction.

"Tiki," she asked, "do you have a kill list?"

For an instant, something bright crossed his face.

"I did."

"What happened to it?"

"I outlived it."

The smile disappeared as quietly as it had come.

"How's the fishing?"

"I'm not fishing."

"Then what are you doing?"

"I'm remembering."

The wind moved across the water.

His body creaked—not like old bones, but like old timber that had crossed too many oceans.

"I think it's just old age, Katya."

She wanted to believe him.

Old age explained the cracks in the ironwood.

It explained the slow movements.

It explained why he needed longer silences.

But it did not explain why every story began with a name no one else remembered.

Or why every ending was a goodbye.

Then Katya understood.

No one person had broken Tiki's heart.

Time had.

Distance had.

The sea between Bali and here had grown wider with every year, 

though the map insisted it had not moved at all.

His anger was only the shell.

Inside it was a fisherman still waiting for dawn on a beach that existed now only in memory, still listening for voices that had long since become waves.