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Monday, July 13, 2026

Venice--October 2012

 Venice

October, 2012

By October of 2012, Gina had become a ghost wearing her own face.

The woman who once filled rooms with laughter had dissolved into silence, as though the tide had carried her voice out to sea. Words lived inside her like trapped birds, beating against her ribs. She knew exactly what she wanted to scream from every rooftop, but when she opened her mouth, language shattered into fragments.

She was no longer imprisoned by walls.

She had become the prison.

Anthony had spent years laying each brick with careful hands—one rule, one insult, one threat at a time. He measured her world until there was barely enough room left for her to breathe. Friends disappeared first, especially the ones whose eyes could read the monster beneath his polished smile.

He hated witnesses.

She hated everything about him.

His rules.

His certainty.

The smug curve of his mouth.

He stood over every moment like a puppeteer above his stage, tugging invisible strings until every ending belonged to him.

Even Paolo had never escaped.

People saw privilege.

They didn't see programming.

Raised beneath impossible expectations, failure became forbidden, and perfection became a prison all its own. Addiction slipped through the cracks like floodwater. Before long it carried him toward jail cells, treatment centers, and nights spent sleeping beside garbage bins where rats became familiar companions. The handsome boy disappeared beneath hollow cheeks, broken teeth, smoke, and despair.

Their family tree bore poisoned fruit.

Its branches twisted under the weight of fear, rage, and distrust.

Gina looked at the harvest and wondered whether love had ever lived there at all.

Then Anthony began preparing for endings.

He called it practicality.

She recognized it as cruelty.

Zeus—her faithful guardian, the only soul who loved without conditions—had sores that refused to heal. Blood stained his legs while Anthony refused the simple mercy of a veterinarian. They tried every remedy they knew, but Zeus lingered, stubborn as an old oak refusing the axe.

Perhaps he understood.

Perhaps he was staying because Gina still needed someone who stood between her and the dark.

From the outside, they looked untouchable.

A Bentley gleamed in the driveway beneath a vanity plate.

A magnificent home overlooked Hawaiian water.

A beautiful boat rocked gently in the harbor.

Every year they crossed oceans together, collecting photographs of happiness like actors changing costumes.

This year, the stage was Venice.

The city floated between water and sky, its ancient palaces mirrored in quiet canals that hid unfathomable depths. Gondolas drifted like black swans through streets of liquid glass, while stone bridges arched over currents carrying centuries of whispered secrets. Venice understood beautiful things built upon fragile foundations.

There, Anthony almost resembled the man he'd promised to be.

Travel softened his edges.

For a few borrowed days, he wore humanity like an expensive suit.

But masks are heavy.

Eventually they slip.

Only Katya knew the true architecture of Gina's life.

The nightmare lay beneath it all like thin ice over black water—appearing solid until one wrong step sent everything crashing through. From a distance it glittered beautifully. Up close, it was always threatening to break.

It felt like a thriller where everyone was marked for death long before they understood the plot.

Anthony believed he was writing the final chapter.

He believed every life around him existed to serve his ending.

He was wrong.

Because beneath Gina's silence, something ancient had survived.

Not happiness.

Not certainty.

Hope.

Hope is a stubborn seed. It pushes through concrete. It splits stone. It reaches toward mālamalama even after years underground.
Anthony had mistaken her quietness for surrender.
He had confused survival with defeat. But her spirit remained kūpaʻa, rooted deep, waiting for its season to bloom.

And survivors learn what storms never understand:

Trees that bend are often the ones still standing after the wind is gone.

This was not where Gina's story ended.

It was where she quietly began writing it herself.

Monday, July 6, 2026

Show 'Em What You Got

 Show 'Em What You Got

Anthony had a job lined up before they had even left New York. Two years after they moved in together, a four-day trip to Hawaii allowed him to make it happen. While Gina toured Pearl Harbor, Anthony was busy building his future. He started by calling the local head of Sears' Home Improvement Division in Honolulu. Then he walked into the man's office and waited. 

And waited.

For hours.

His persistence finally paid off. Impressed by the young man's determination, the boss handed Anthony the number of another ambitious Italian on the other side of the island.

Anthony called immediately.

The following evening, he and Gina met Sal P. and his Japanese wife, Kiki, for dinner. Sal owned the local siding company, whose 

slogan proudly proclaimed, "Steel Is for Real."

Over dinner, Anthony's confidence filled the room. He had already proven he could communicate, but Sal still had one question.

"Can you run a company?"

Anthony never hesitated.

"I can."

Sal wasn't completely convinced, but he admired the conviction.

"Come back in a few months," he said. "I'll give you a job. Then we'll see."

It wasn't a promise easily made. Sal had heard plenty of confident talk from would-be employees over the years, but few ever lived 

up to their own words.

Anthony intended to.

The truth was that he knew nothing about installing steel siding. He was a roofer by trade. But he learned quickly, worked relentlessly, and before long had impressed the hell out of Sal.

In return, Sal became more than an employer.

He taught Anthony how to sell. He patiently corrected his terrible spelling. In another life, Sal had been an English teacher, but wanderlust had carried him far beyond the classroom. Business had become his new adventure.

The partnership flourished.

Within a few years, Anthony was running the company while Sal focused on sales. Their strengths complemented one another, and the business prospered.

Eventually, Anthony felt the pull to build something of his own.

Sal wished him well, knowing that independent spirits are rarely meant to stay in one place forever.

Soon afterward, Sal moved to Saipan to launch several new businesses. Kiki had lost her battle with an aggressive cancer, and Hawaii no longer felt like home without her. Rather than dwell on grief, Sal chose another beginning.

Anthony hired a trusted local employee and continued building his own success. Business was good, and he never let anyone forget who he believed was carrying the financial load.

As his confidence grew, so did his need to remind Gina who was responsible for their lifestyle.

He often told her he was the earner in the family, as though his paycheck gave him the final word. Eleven years older than Gina, he believed age and income entitled him to authority. What had once looked like confidence was slowly revealing itself as control.

Anthony had built his career through persistence and determination. He had earned Sal's respect by proving himself, one opportunity at a time.

At home, however, he expected respect without question.

There was a difference, though Anthony rarely saw it.

 

Friday, March 14, 2014

A Weedy Return

Lodged between
a healthy seedling
and a slowly decaying sharp bromeliad
lay a tangled
web of Impatiens.
Take heart,
one twitches
when steady is required
a further adjustment
there, no THERE.
Their shaken world
will either align
or give up the ghost.



Thursday, January 31, 2013

Navigating Change: Making A Difference!

Kealoha Poetry Slam-134Kealoha Poetry Slam-133Kealoha Poetry Slam-128Kealoha Poetry Slam-122Kealoha Poetry Slam-120 (1)Kealoha Poetry Slam-113
Kealoha Poetry Slam-112Kealoha Poetry Slam-100Kealoha Poetry Slam-89Kealoha Poetry Slam-40Kealoha Poetry Slam-31Kealoha Poetry Slam-27
Kealoha Poetry Slam-23Kealoha Poetry Slam-22Kealoha Poetry Slam-19Kealoha Poetry Slam-16Kealoha Poetry Slam-9Kealoha Poetry Slam-8 (2)
These 16 pictures are courtesy of Habilitat!
An Evening of Poetry at Habilitat, with special guests Kealoha, the first Poet Laureate of Hawaii, myself Connie D. and Fellow Pen Woman, Marcia Zina Mager

A Special Thank you to Habilitat Poets
Sarah S.
Ocie G.
Shannon N.
Mark B.
Krystal A. for the ART

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Victoria’s Irresistible's



 Forget Victoria’s Secret
It is December 10th
and I  am chewing on a homemade cookie
called IRRESISTIBLE
I KID YOU NOT!
I’m chewing and swallowing the yummy goodness
and my mouth
hell, my nose
and my taste-buds
are drunk, in the after fresh baked glow
of granola, organic oats
chocolate chips
dried cranberries
almonds
vanilla
organic cane and brown sugar
and did I mention
chocolate chips?
And butter
organic flour
baking powder
baking soda
and salt so
SCREW
THE DIET
and tomorrow
I’m eating
another damn COOKIE!

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Tsunami

And the waves come.
The wave comes.
The wave pulls up its skirt
puckers its lips
drawing them in
leveling their dare
insatiable.

And the waves come.
The wave comes.
The wave bitch slaps
blackened hearts
panting for a gentler tap.
Tempting fools and bullies. As it
cracks facades, splits foundations sucking out their essence,
until their base, isolated harbors, scream no more.

And the waves come.
The wave comes.
The wave roars, devastating coastlines
tossing mettle at will. Striking and fierce
winking at the blue moon
as it tallies their cheek
on its terrible shores.

©Connie DeDona 11-02-12

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Mele Kalikimaka 2011



Here it is December again —Tom and I are still healthy and mobile. Life is good as we continue to maintain our dream home and keep the spackle wet and pliable as we sculpt our aging bodies into rock hard shape.   
(I'm doing the face exercises and lifting and stretching my neck part--A,E,I,O,U.)

We have two new additions to the family Rocky and Apollo—that today become one year old.  We are having a party later, inviting all of their cat, and dog friends.  This week Apollo chewed up my brand new business cards, which the FEDEX driver so graciously let him bring back to the house—ALONE!  Imagine, the driver thought Apollo was so well trained he didn’t even bother to honk his horn!  Apollo eagerly ripped open the box and drooled and chewed on each and every card inspecting them for quality and leaving his stamp of approval.  I am so proud doesn’t quite describe it.   Zeus, our most royal Great Dane spends most days sequestered in the garage. He is eight years old now and can only take so much excitement. He prefers to stretch out on a premium carpet next to the Bentley until two in the afternoon, or until nature calls.

Tom and I are still working out in the gym, only not at the same time. I prefer to walk or jog on the treadmill, alternating on the recumbent bike with a dash of weight lifting and crunches thrown in for good measure, whereas Tom does about one thousand crunches a day, and will grunt and groan through a grueling workout, his sweat glistening from every pore and then want to blend up a fruit tree mixed with protein powder for breakfast.   I am still counting calories and limiting my excitement to writing and I’ve just taken up bowling again. Golf is too hard on my lower back and pinched sciatic nerve. The doctor approves so long as I continue to lift weights. (Doc-what about the bowling ball?)     I know you are wondering at this point (I wrote pint first, so what the hell, I’ve quit but do go ahead) how much longer will she go on? My eye lids are drooping and I think I have a crick in my shoulder.  Seriously, whose idea was it anyway to send Christmas letters?

At harump-donk-humpf my memory is starting to fade. It is a good thing that I keep an appointment book throughout the year to record all my activities or I would have to make this shit up. 

Tom’s daughter Natalie came for the summer with three of her children, Ashley, Andrew and Kaitlyn.  We were thrilled –and the time passed quicker than originally expected.  Thank GOD for diazepam.  

I am working on a novel.  Goodreads.com is sponsoring my two book giveaways, click on my blog links. My book, Letters to a Prisoner by Connie D. received an Honorable Mention in Poetry at the New York Book Festival, not bad for a self-published book on a small budget.  And I just released Meadow Pause Revisited by Cornelia Connie D. DeDona, another poetry and photography book that is available on Amazon and my blog.  On Saturday April 16, 2011, I lead a panel on Alternative Publishing at the Kapolei Public Library.  In September I was accepted as a member into the NLAPW (National League of American Pen Women).  I had three poems and two photographs published in the 2011 issue of Rain Bird, Windward Community College’s  award winning annual journal and will be in next year’s humor issue as well, that makes five consecutive years. Also two of my short stories were published in One Forty Fiction. I appeared on Olelo from Jan. 11-14th (local Hawaiian TV channel) in January to share my story with Habilitat- the place of change; a drug rehab in Kaneohe. I also like to write and perform slam poetry.  I went back to Habilitat in August and performed my slam poems and invited some of the Habilitat residents to join me, we had a blast.   You can Google me; I have three Facebook pages, two domains and one ex- large weakness for dark chocolate and peanut M&M’s.   

I am looking forward to foreign travel again sometime in the near future, where and when is top secret even the pentagon doesn’t know.  I am sending the documents to Mission Impossible as Vantage Deluxe World Travel has been permanently crossed off my Christmas list; clearly service at Vantage is not something they do these days what with cut backs, news link and joke forwarding not to mention arranging air travel to and from Hawaii.  I’m also boycotting them in support of the Amazon Rainforest, which has suffered huge blows  just by Vantage Travel’s  mail order business ALONE.  

But I digress; I have a brand new Nikon D-5000 which I picked up in Vegas this October. Tom and I saw Elton John and the Million Dollar Piano in the Coliseum at Caesar’s Palace.  Elton John named his new piano Blossom, after jazz singer Blossom Dearie. The Coliseum is so big—they have people every so many feet just to direct traffic, luckily I didn’t have to use the restroom.  It was awesome and ear splitting at first—I’m not quite sure if I’m now permanently deaf or if they actually lowered the sound but I was really rocking to some old favorites by the end of the concert.  

 Tom regularly goes out fishing on his 26’Navy boat and has had some admirable catches to show for it.  We are eating plenty of Mahi-Mahi and Ahi these days.
Tom also contributes regularly to the Hawaii Fishing News. They like him so much, they gave us a whole page with photos in the June issue, Tom and his crew David Johnson--photographer, Dr. Steven Wonderlich and Mikey Ordenstein had the unfortunate experience of having  the boat’s prop get tangled  up in a huge cargo net out in the middle of the pacific ocean.  They had to take turns jumping into the ocean to cut the prop free, and it took hours.  I had recently written a poem about the one of the garbage islands in the Pacific Ocean titled The Great Pacific Garbage Patch, which was also included. (BTW, also in my new book, Meadow Pause Revisited-- for more info: www.corneliadedona.com )     

So in-between crunches, feeding/ training the bull mastiff puppies, writing fishing poems and articles, buying flashlights, recycling cans and bottles, dumpster diving for perfectly good stuff, fixing lawnmowers and maintaining our one acre estate, Tom is learning the computer and has joined Facebook. You can find him there or email him at capttommydedona@gmail.com .  He was accepted into The Ono Golf Club, a men’s group at Hickam’s Mamala Bay Golf Course, where he walks the course every Thursday. Who knows he may even run into the President there?  Tom bought himself a 2011 Nissan Frontier truck.  He also accepts donations of gently used books for the Friends of the Library where we both volunteer year-round. (Please if it has mildew, a broken binding or dead insects, put it into the trash—otherwise thank you and let us know if you need a receipt.) 

Our son Jason is fit and doing well. He is still in a relationship and knows what it is like to have a teenager in the house, as his fiancé has a thirteen year old daughter. He spends Saturdays with us and occasionally comes bowling.  In September he helped Tom cut, and weld a new gate next to our automatic gate in the front. Now we can walk outside without having to open the huge sliding gate or use the electric gate mechanism.  He also convinced us that it was a good idea to install a photovoltaic system this year. My electric bill surpassed reasonable over two years ago.  We also purchased a new energy saver refrigerator, since the old one quietly died on Thanksgiving night.  It’s a good thing I have two.  We are hiking up Koko head trail together next weekend, (after I pick up my real Christmas tree from Habilitat) which is a walk in the park if you are a triathlete.  The last time I climbed up that hill, I sweat bullets and swore with the eloquence of a sailor.  This time I’m bringing my new camera—to video our adventure, just in case my amnesia returns.

Have a Safe and Happy Holiday Season!                                Tommy, Connie, Zeus, Rocky and Apollo


Jason, Connie and Tommy 11-24-11 Heeia Kea Boat Harbor


 Apollo and Rocky-one year old

 Apollo's stamp of approval
 Yikes! my business cards@#$
 New walk through Gate
 Zeus--8 yrs old
 The Cargo Net-And the garbage from Japan isn't here yet!


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